DIVA QUEEN.

Not complaining but....

2012-02-11T08:31:00.000-08:00

It just get tired sometime.

Jufry Naim,

2012-02-10T06:28:00.000-08:00

I wont forsake you.

Oh just some business.

2012-02-02T03:19:00.005-08:00

It's kind a funny how this starts and how it actually kick-off.

Such an unplanned plan. How unplanned was it? Well, we thought of doing it 3 days before we start searching and loading the stock and kick-off our first batch.

I never thought I finally did this with some random pack of friends.

But anyway, here goes.

Hye you guys, me and my friends are starting a small business to support our daily needs and for a personal reason to collect saving for my dream vacation. I know it's ironic for me to be in this business, but I have always wanted sell stuff and apparently I finally found a pack of friends who is willing to do this with me. So, feel free to drop by sometime and buy something :)

Ce n'est pas assez bonne.

2012-01-23T03:42:00.000-08:00

Back again.

I know right. Not everybody is free lately for me to talk to. I mean yeah, some are working, some are studying, some has their own story to tell. But nevermind tho. This page has always been my booty call for some rhetoric ranting session ain't it?

So, I talked to my one very good friend last night. Suddenly we talked about relationships and marriage and stuff like that. Than he asked me questions like this ;

"When do you think it's yr time to get married? If God forbid that it wasn't meant to be, would you be frustrated?" . "Do you think with yr current lifestyle, that you'll be eternally together?" . "Yes, he is with you now. But in the future it's hard to say you know" . "You can't rely too much on human being"

Got to tell you that those question really got me thinking. I mean I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. About me, about work and about other thing which relate to my previous post.

Was it all because I didn't pray enough that I can't mend whatever that I think that I have the idea on how it suppose to go or work didn't go the way it was suppose to be. Don't get tangled in my sentence now. I mean, really? Is that what cause it?

I felt tired of coping with situation sometime. Situation that I thought I have the idea of how it supposed to work.

Haih.

Future scares me a bit. I am a nice girl I think. And I hope future didn't set me up for a disaster.

Because I seriously don't have any clue on how to deal with it enough to live in it.

Oh well.

Sam 'ol.

2012-01-22T03:28:00.000-08:00

Hye.

Okay it has been awhile since my last long post. It usually starts like this, at the beginning of the new year I will post like maximum of twice a week then it slows down and later there'll be none at all.

My life is at the stage where I don't really know if what I'm doing now is right for me to live with for the rest of future. People usually says follow the flow and whats not, but I think it's bullshit. I mean I've been following the flow for quite sometime and it isn't done me any good sometime.

Or maybe its because I hardly pray.

Because I tried every possible thing that I could think off. But sometime it just don't get my way. Or other way. It'll end up like everybody is swallowing whatever it is just because they don't want to get in to an arguments which I don't prefer to do for the rest of the future.

I don't get it why it has to be so hard. Why other people always got their way. Or it is because I hardly pray?

I should get serious with my prayers because universe just don't get me good.

Then what is?

2012-01-19T08:06:00.001-08:00

Sometime you make me feel like what I think I did right is wrong and not good enough.

Oh well, you are my bintang after all :)

U mau bintang?

2012-01-13T08:29:00.000-08:00

Apakah hanya aku yang mencuba?

Apakah hanya aku yang rasa?

Toddler

2012-01-09T08:22:00.000-08:00

Happy 4th Anniversary Jufry Naim.

All I'm hoping for is that I have forever to spent with you.

I hope you find your happiness in me like I am with you.

I love you so much sayang. Please know that I really do.

Forever and for always.

Mellow

2012-01-07T09:47:00.000-08:00

Holding on to you.

Because you are my dream and I see everything in you.

You just have to know that.

Cheek to cheek

2012-01-07T02:29:00.000-08:00

It has become tougher.

But sweeter.

I guess.

Oh well, it ain't life if it ain't fucked us up once or twice isn't it.

2012

2012-01-03T06:26:00.000-08:00

Hello.

It's January 2012 now. 2011 passed by so fast. I am 24 this year. Still got many to accomplished. Still got things to take care off.

Being an excellent daughter and sister. Being a good girlfriend to Jufry Naim. Being a great friend to others. Being a much determine subordinate to my boss and company.

And that's all I think I want to be this year.

Being a wife?

Not there yet.

Haha.

Oh well, as i usually said to the other years...

2012 please be nice to me. Fatten my wallet and lose my weight, never the otherwise.

Instant

2011-11-18T05:09:00.000-08:00

I feel like so much more in love right now.

I feel like want to get married.

Sayang, do you want?

hehe :)

CONGRATS!

2011-10-16T04:06:00.000-07:00

I had my time a year ago,

and yesterday she got hers. Congratulation my dear Nik!

I am proud of you, Eda is proud of you. We all are. And you look so beautiful on that day.

I love you :)

And congrats to Api and Syed as well.

Looking forward for Eda's graduation next :)

Argue.

2011-08-01T06:41:00.000-07:00

I had an argument with my mom.

She called me "mata duitan". Ha ha.

I don't know how to respond to that. I want to, but I don't know how.

Truth is she don't know me that well. And that is kind a sad. But I am used to it.

All i ever did was wrong to her eyes, never the good one.

I'm taking a break from trying to be the good one, because I know she need a place for her to get mad at. Because my 2nd brother is well himself and my 3rd brother is always the good one. So. Whatever. I try to be good but there will always something that can make her mad at me, so I don't know what else is there out there. I don't know how to talk to her since she never likes or never want to talk. Heck, I don't even know the story how she met my dad. But I think it is too late to start now, I mean she already hated me. ha ha. So yeah. Who else is left that don't hate me right. Well it is probably my fault too since, I don't like to share too much with her because she don't share that much with me. I know that she shared with someone else but I don't want to say anything and I don't think she know that I know that. She only think I am after her money, well I'm not. But I don't know how to tell her that. I don't like she keeps telling me things I know I had to do, I don't like how she always look down on me after she asked me question or she looks at me. I don't like she embarrassed me in front of her friends like I am always lazy and whatever she always tell other people. But she don't know that. And all she think that I am after her money. Ha Ha.

Oh well,

Dah biasa.

Belum lagi.

2011-07-24T07:37:00.000-07:00

Yang mana tahu, maka tahu lah.

Yang mana tak tahu, assume. Biasalah, orang ramai.

Tapi;

Terkadang ada yang tahu tapi bercakap seperti tidak tahu. Pelik.

Terkadang yang disangka tahu sebenarnya pura-pura tahu tapi tak tahu. Pelik.

Terkadang apa yang dikhabar bila bersua lain, bila dibelakang pula lain. Pelik.

Terkadang rasa seperti boleh minta bantu, rupa-rupanya bantu masa senang masa nak mengata orang saja. Pelik.

Entah lah. Tak tenang sebenarnya sekarang.

Cuba cipta suasana tenang tu, nampak senang, tapi sebenarnya tak senang tapi tak susah.

Sedih sedih, memang lah sedih. Tapi nak sedih seorang diri lagi la sedih.

Sindir menyindir itu biasa. Semakin hari, semakin terasa. Tak apa. Pekak kan saja, tuli kan saja, hadap saja, tak payah banyak cerita.

Tak tahu nak cari jalan yang mana, bila jalan yang sedia ada, muncul lubang yang tiba-tiba ada.

Ada sedikit bahagia, bila sedar sebenarnya selalu ada. Tapi bila tahu hanya adalah jasad yang separuh rasa, senyum saja, nak buat macam mana. Tapi sayang saya sentiasa ada.

Haha, dah memang ini yang diri sendiri mahu, bukan nak mengeluh, tapi senak.

Senak dada, senak kepala, senak hati dan segala rongga.

Tapi untuk berlalu, bukan aku.

Belum lagi.

I don't like people telling me the obvious but

2011-07-11T18:34:00.000-07:00

2011-06-14T22:24:00.000-07:00

Gua rasa makin lama gua macam jering kat ofis ni. Yawn giler. Ada time Yawn sikit, ada time Yawn banyak, bila yawn banyak, memang jadi cacat gini la.

LOL, loser gila. lama gila tak update amende pon tak tau nak letak. Pfft.

Precious

2011-06-01T01:16:00.000-07:00

Something you don't find easily.

Serious Talk.

2011-03-31T17:46:00.000-07:00

Mengharap itu membunuh. Trust me.

Rindu Amat.

2011-03-31T00:34:00.000-07:00

Somehow they are all similar.

Somehow they are more normal than I am.

Somehow they are more lovable than annoying, or just annoying.

That's why they are close to me, that's why I love them very dearly.

And if I get 3 wishes these are my wishes. Okay that's a lie BUT who know's. It might (or not) be.

Whatever it is, love is what I have for them.

Family Gathering

2011-03-18T08:51:00.000-07:00

Yeah, kind a not feeling it now.

The maximum time I can be in it is less than 1 and a half hour, after that it just, nahhh.

Too much memory. Too much things suddenly remembered.

I don't wanna be in memory lane just yet.

I just wanna be at my own lane, the lane that I created. The lane which have plenty of junction for me to skip that one lane.

Yeah, gonna walk on that lane somewhere in the future, but for now. Yeah not feeling it.

Fak rindu.

Haha. Al-fatihah.

ilyrlkthanksbye.

Tak kelakar pun sebenarnya.

2011-02-28T06:25:00.001-08:00

Hahaha adoi sedih gila. Pecah gila rasa. Hahaha.

Apa nak buat, boleh nak hadap, tapi tahan aa. Hahaha.

Dah itu cara awok. Siapa je la saya yang pandang sebelah mata ni.

Hahaha.

Ha Ha Ha.

Ha fucking Ha.

//Away nanges.

pukimak.

Si Dove yang Kasihan.

2011-02-28T03:23:00.000-08:00

Hehe. Bila kita ingat kita ada semua tapi sebenarnya kita tak ada apa-apa, rasa macam kesian kan? Yep. Macam pathetic gila.

Rasa kesian dengan diri sendiri kadang-kadang, oke tipu. Selalu sebenarnya. Haha. Asyik asyik saya ni pergi ketengah tapi asyik asyik ditolak ketepi. Jahat betul kosmos dengan saya. Apa masalah kosmos dan apa masalah saya. Entah. Nak kata khianat kat orang, tak. Ambil rasuah, tak. Penipu besar, tak. Pencuri, tak. Slut, tak.

Mungkin tak se-awesome orang lain. Tak cantik untuk orang bercerita, kurang bersukan untuk join marathon, tak kaya untuk bawak kawan-kawan naik kereta besar, tak ada tetek besar untuk pakai v-neck, tak ada perut kempis untuk pakai hugging dress, tak mata bulat untuk orang tenung lama-lama, tak konfiden untuk rasa sama level dengan orang ramai, tak ramai duit untuk pergi vacation setiap 3 bulan, tak ada masa untuk bergurau senda. Opss, hahaha. Eleh mesti ada yang mencemuh kata aku tak bersyukur bagai. Sudah lah korang. Benda yang aku tak ada tu la yang secretly korang nak and secretly korang judge. Pfft. Isokay, aku pon denial jugak kadang-kadang. Boo.

Haha boo orang, tapi sebenarnya boo diri sendiri. Haha. Haha. Haih.

Bby, selalu cakap "cari kawan-kawan". Dah cari dah ada. Macam hari-hari je jumpa kawan-kawan dan orang ramai yang lain tp masih rasa macam yang ada pun buat-buat tak nampak ke saya. Stakat sapa-sapa buat syarat je. Haha konon tak obvious tapi boleh rasa la awok. Yang tak ada memang tak nampak langsung la. Haha. Sebab tu la dok ulang-ulang yang tu je. Mungkin semua pon bosang ke saya. Haha. Nampak bebeno la saya tak se-awesome mana.

Ding dong ding dong. Ah membebel apa lah. Makin pathetic lagi ada. Boo.

ps: imyjnkthanksbye.

Entahlah.

2011-02-06T07:31:00.000-08:00

I don't want to talk about anything. I don't want to think about anything. I don't want to cry about anything. I don't want to scream at anything. I don't want to do anything. I don't want anything!

Ok,

I lied.

Love is, Happiness. Life is, Hard. In denial to be, Brilliant. I choose to be, Stupid. Truth is I'm afraid to get, Hurt.

People say I am being stupid but I don't feel stupid because I am making my self happy by standing up for the thing that I Love. But that is being denial, so people say. Sacrificing your own need/good for other happiness is kind and Love. Pushing people away and not knowing what the reason is, stupid. Let other people thinks that they did things wrong but at the same time you don't even know what the problem is, is also, stupid. But to say that there is no actual reason, is denial. Either way nor you or the other is hurt. At the end of the day no one choose to be Brilliant.

Dear life,

What else do you want from me while I almost get you? Please be kind.

2011-01-20T20:10:00.000-08:00

3 years & baby we rock it.

2011-01-10T19:49:00.000-08:00

Falling in love with you is easy,

Being in love with you is patience,

All in all is a great journey to walk through together.

You are awesome. Always is and always will be.

Thank you for all the sweetest and hardest time and thank you for being mine.

I Love You Jufry Naim, very dearly.

And you know that.

Manusia memang tak pernah cukup.

2010-12-13T19:36:00.000-08:00

Apa lagi nak. Kan?

Faith

2010-12-12T18:48:00.000-08:00

Take a walk I’ll hold your hands for now,

It’s happening,it's happening,

makes it hard to lose another night,

I’ll pretend that I’m a man for now,

It’s difficult,It’s difficult

to soothe a wounded heart,

Before you go,

Give me all of your love,

Before you go,

I’ll give you all of mine.

I'll be here forever,

I'll always be a friend,

And I'm gonna stick it out till end,

Tho I know you wanna start over,

It's okay, do not worry.

But there's always one box where you put nice thoughts nice things in it to be carry forward,

And I hope I am in that box.

Whenever you are,

Give me a ring (tho I'll be giving you once in a while on the way) :)

Take care love. Good Luck. I have faith in you.

p/s: You are so mengada with the sudden disappearance. Pfftt. Haha. Mwah.

How I wish these stays forever.

2010-11-17T07:05:00.000-08:00

SYDNEY ADVENTURESOME from teeya dandy on Vimeo.

Ini lah cerita kebahagiaan saya. November saya yang uber.

SUMMER LOVE

2010-11-13T16:25:00.001-08:00

JN,

2010-10-04T01:22:00.000-07:00

How are you holding up Tya?

2010-09-28T21:28:00.000-07:00

I don't want to talk about waiting and hoping. Many people around me seems to make that topic a favourite recently. Well, I refuse to write about waiting and hoping, though I am waiting and hoping as well. As most people knows I am so annoying when it comes to what will happen in November though I didn't blabber about to alot of people but some of them knows. I don't know why I am so obsess with November that I have to think about it all the time. Well I actually knows why it just I think it's too much for me to tell it here though I already made it clear how November is at the top of my waiting list. And I am doing it right now. Okay.

Change topic.

Things is going quite well at the office, so well that I haven't been given any work to do nor need to be done or something. That's why I have all the time in my hand to write this and do what other things that is non work related. It is quite depressing to just sit and get paid. I mean seriously, it's like not fair to others. I am not bad you see. I asked my boss if there's any work to do but he just let me loose. Oh well. I might just enjoy this moment though, hope this don't affect my KPI's. *sheesh talking bout KPI's* I hate talking about work, it makes me feels old and all grown up.

Things are doing extreamly well with my relationship. It's like we are on a new ship now, the new leaves has turns and I am so thankfull for that though I couldn't just yet scrap away my jealousy though it wouldn't be me without the drama.Not to make my bby pening thinking bout how to make me feel happy or whats not, it just, I like being in my drama. A little drama is okay I guess. I'm a big girl I think, jealous today, tomorrow's okay already. And he is a big boy, he know what he's doing. I don't know though, I can't get him off for a while. He is like a whole year of November, 365 days of November. Till now I don't even know what I think before him. Aww being cheesy and corny at the same time. Double load bitches, take that. Haha. Ahhh I just love my man, and love the thought that he is my man.

Things are doing good at home. What else can I say. People at home are like people at home, close of being together close of being a stranger. No one knows what really happens with the other. I can say that, most of us nowadays are basically waxing on their on beeswax. Though I try my hardest to you know, communicate better with my mom. Still can't find the jizz there. I don't know do I like feel ashamed or respect or I don't know which one. But I love her though, but sometime when she's up at my grill, telling me things the other way round, I just don't know how to express my real feeling and end up express the wrong one. Oh well, things are always like that, but we do know we still have each other. That what's matter pon kan?

Well, it's almost lunch break and I do need a break from pretending doing some work loads :)

How are you holding up people?

"But it wouldn't be my world with out you in it" - Blair Waldorf

2010-09-28T08:31:00.000-07:00

Apa salahnya, kadang-kadang kan :)

Bisou bisou.

2010-09-23T10:40:00.000-07:00

Alamak, semakin kuat dah terasa ni.

Cepatlah masa. AHA! Pray hard :)

2010-09-14T19:08:00.000-07:00

fallin' from Cool79 on Vimeo.

Fatigue.

2010-09-14T16:35:00.000-07:00

Letih lah asyik-asyik nak rasa macam ni.

Letih sebab fikir, letih sebab rasa, letih sebab apa punca pun tak tau, letih sebab sendiri kena usaha untuk jaga hati sendiri. Kalau buat tak tahu, sendiri makan hati.

Letih la saya.

Letih.

Attendez Moi, Novembre.

2010-09-13T09:43:00.000-07:00

November,Saya rasa awak lah kebahagiaan saya sekarang ni.Saya tak sabar nak keluar dari Malaysia.Saya tak sabar nak jumpa stranger-stranger dari luar Malaysia.Semua yang berada di Malaysia meletihkan saya, fizikal dan emosi.Saya mula jadi Jackass, buat perangai, emo, moody, maki orang. At some point I even feel like this is not me.Jadi, bukan saya tak sayang negara saya, cuma kadang-kadang 'I need a break'.From things at home, from things at work, from spouse, from friends, from people I love.Sebab saya selalu rasa saya ni persinggahan. Sekarang makin teruk pulak rasa persinggahan tu singgah dekat diri saya. Saya start rasa orang-orang sekililing is taking me for granted.
I don't know maybe they do, or maybe saya nak period.
Jadi November,Tunggu lah saya, saya janji dengan diri yang berkali ganda lebih kurus dari sekarang,saya akan keluar dari Malaysia, bersama video cam saya, serta musik-musik yang menyenangkan hati saya, untuk bergembira pada bulan November. It's summer time baby.Saya mesti belajar sayang diri saya, memandangkan orang-orang ramai yang saya ingat boleh sayangkan diri saya ni busy dengan kehidupan mereka. Haih.

Carla Bruni,This songs really helps. Thanks. It's beautiful. Le francais est belle.

SHRMZB!

2010-09-12T07:45:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya orang ramai. Maaf Zahir Batin.

Tahun ni langsung tak rasa hype raya. Salam raya pon aku tak nangis, macam tak rasa mende pun. Rasa macam hari-hari biasa cuma ada sesi ziarah menziarahi, saling bermaafan. Angkat pinggan hidang kat orang, bersihkan meja lepas orang balik. Sangat plain dan sangat bosan.

Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya lah ye orang ramai sekalian. Mintak maaf kalau ada terbiadap cara, terkasar bahasa atau tersalah rasa. Sesungguhkan perbuatan itu tidak disengajakan.

I miss you ayah. oketujebai.

B o s a n.

2010-09-10T07:55:00.000-07:00

Terasa bosan dengan diri sendiri sebab terlampau lah self-consciousnya. Sampai jadi annoying dengan orang-orang yang buat aku rasa self-conscious padahal sendiri yang nak rasa. Orang ramai yang annoying dengan aku pun buat aku rasa lagi nak annoying dengan orang ramai. Macam menyampah pun ada. Orang lain je la lawonye. Orang lain je la layak dipujinye. Mende ni biasa dah jadi, tapi kalau tiap kali nak jadi penat lah pulak nak rasa self-consciousnya. Dah semua tak kena bila tanak self-conscious pon tak tau lah saya ni.

Hmm. Sokay lah, saya dah biasa pon. Esok-esok elok lah tu.

Brought from the before life.

2010-08-26T08:29:00.000-07:00

On the past life, I am not a Diva Queen as I am now.

On the past life, I am Diva le chat or deesse chat.

NYAU!

Hungry Song.

2010-08-25T22:29:00.000-07:00

I am so hungrrryyyy I could eat a horseeee.

And if all the horse is goonnee, I will eat the unicoorrnn and turn in to Lord Voldermoorrtt.

*and continue explains why I can turn in to Lord Voldermort*

How cute I am to have a hungry song? He he.

Zero Effect.

2010-08-22T00:54:00.001-07:00

Tak terasa langsung langsung Ramadhan kali ini. Terlampau plain. Raya entah macam mana pulak. Senyum je la. Ha ha.

Me.

2010-08-20T10:04:00.000-07:00

"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long at the first place"

I have read this quote somewhere for so many time. And this quote actually applies to a whole lot of situation that I have gone through in my recent life. This is what kept me going.

Being me is like being all the junk in my room. For all the things that I think is crucial and important, I put it in sight so that when I need to use it, I don't need to look for it, I can just grab it. And for like other unimportant things I put it aside, some or most of them is junk but still, I didn't throw it away. Why? Well it's either between 'malas' or 'sayang'.

Same goes to the feeling I have and own inside me. Some or them is important and some of them is junk, but I never care to throw them away or sort it out, because that's what make me, me. I don't like to give up on hope, on people, on other living or un-living thing and if I don't care doesn't mean I wanted to, most of the time I just forgot about it. Cause you know what, I was once/twice/trice try to give up, but I held it in and do what I just quoted. And look where I am now. Certainly a better life. I got a good job, a boyfriend and friends who loves me, a very strong and happy family for what it's left. But I admit, with all this upheaval that I have in me, I tend to bash it out on people by being annoying. And trust me although I love being annoying to bits, I tried so hard not to be one, because people don't really like me when I'm annoying (yes, I realize that). He he.

And because all of that junk and emotion mash-up in me all at once, that is why I became like this, that is why I am me. Annoying but kind at heart. And it's yr lost if you don't try to know or like me, because I am worth it to be known or like ♥

And I wont stop.

2010-08-16T08:22:00.000-07:00

Ni je lah saya dapat buat pun ayah saya oi :)

2010-08-15T14:32:00.000-07:00

and ni la apa yang ayah nak pun. Ha ha. Sedihnya lah saya ni. kbye.

Self Conscious (again).

2010-08-04T04:41:00.001-07:00

Saya rasa,

saya tak cantik.

Hmm Haih Sigh.

Thanks for putting a smile on my face.

2010-07-30T03:30:00.000-07:00

I am gonna miss our Wednesday date.

That is how we roll baby.

2010-07-26T10:33:00.000-07:00

But sometime I just forgot.

Well it is me, drama queen.

Ha ha.

Sucka!

2010-07-26T09:23:00.000-07:00

Depan-depan saya awak pura-pura baik. Tapi belakang-belakang saya awak macam celaka jual po'en.

Awak dah kutuk-kutuk saya dekat boyfriend saya.

Cakap saya tak lawa dekat boyfriend saya.

Pastu awak nak jadi kawan saya. Kenapa? Nak stalk ke? Nak prove something ke? BOO-ret.

MY ASS LA BITCH.

Well, saya dah lawa sekarang, awak tu yang setia buruk. Bu-weks.

P/S: Kesian awak single sampai sekarang. Perangai busuk, muka macam jalan tak berturap, memang lah orang tak suka. Siapa pun tak mahu. Ha ha!

Well that sucked!

2010-07-25T10:08:00.001-07:00

Orang ramai teruk la, judge I. Yang tak kenal pun sibuk nak judge I.

The one thing I do for us makes people talk bad about me and saying stuff to you. That makes me feel bad. Do you know how trashy I felt when you told me that?

And who are they to talk?

Do they know what I have to give up just to do that one thing? No!

Do they know how I feel when that's they only thing that I can do? NO!

And yet still judging me and talk bad things about me.

I wasn't trying to be the creep keeper. I am just looking out for my self. I do it for me.

And all you did was smile. Haih, it better be a hot one or else I might just die and save everybody the hate. Pffft. Peoples.

After all, it's all about the guys.

2010-07-16T06:02:00.000-07:00

This is a man's world that we are living. But it wouldn't be nothing without a women or a girl. In my P.O.V, everything that a girl do is not exactly for them self, it is also for the other person who she puts in her heart. May it be families, may it be friends, but it is undeniable that a girl may do something for the man she loves. They won't admit it no they won't, but they won't deny it either cause they have this ego thing, and actually an ego of a girl is actually more tough than an ego of a man. And no matter how complicated woman is, it is still not as complicated as mens mind. I'm not trying to write a rule book for girls or guys or whatever and I don't think what I'm going to say next is significant to what I wrote but,

Chuck Bass,

although on the 13th September I will be busy celebrating the 3rd day of Hari Raya Eid, I will not forget about our date. I've been dying to see you since I miss you so much and I hope that you are fine and dandy. And of course, not dead :)

Stress

2010-07-12T07:22:00.000-07:00

Aku rasa self conscious aku bertambah teruk kot sekarang. Stress tengok orang kurus. Well it's not that I'm not happy with what I am now, I am. But when people talks bad/negative about me, whether they are joking or not, I won't show it but it does just triggers me. Haha SINCE WHEN I CARE ABOUT PEOPLE LA WEH!? I also didn't know but apparently I do now. Okay not only now, it's been quite a while. Some people say that I am okay I have a good well physical and me too sometime, I think I am not that unfortunate there are more people who is less fortunate than I am, but I still didn't feel what I do to have what I want is enough for me to go on. Haha, okay now maybe I sounded like tak bersyukur (I know you are judging me) but THAT'S THE TRUTH. Don't tell me you are so comfortable with your self until you don't even complain about any single thing. A skinny girl I've met pon boleh cakap peha dia besar and it definitely makes me goes what the fuck!? Itu besar ke? it's like she's want me to admit that mine is bigger than her's. See how self conscious I can be? Huff, I feel so stress right now. So so stress.

I LOL AT THIS.

2010-07-06T09:21:00.001-07:00

Click for larger view*

I know it's not nice and all but LOL! It is damn funny and cute too. HAHAHAH!

Stupid is as stupid does.

2010-06-10T10:29:00.000-07:00

This is a very honest and cute story. So much love. And it gets to me every single time. Every each and single time.

Fuck my brains out.

2010-06-10T02:53:00.001-07:00

Life of an unemployed IS FUCKING BORING MAN! Seriously, it was all a waste of time, a waste of energy and you can even get tired of doing nothing. Fuck, who get's tired of doing nothing? ME. That's who. Not only I am jobless, I am also money-less, self-less and a whole lot of other less! And it makes you lazier too which contribute me too my old habits THAT I DON'T WISH TO REPEAT. All I am to do (if I don't have any transport with me on that day) is wake up, do chores, exercise and there, that's it. That's fucking it and it is fuckin' boring man. And for those people who I always talks/complain too knows that I do not like to be sitting at home. It's not that I don't like my house or anything in it. It just that I don't like being in it for too long. For like be in it, long enough for too long and I just don't know why or maybe I do know why but it just that I don't want to admit it or what's not. Whatever! And remember how I talked about how people said they found their reset button when they are at home and whatever sheit, well I don't. It didn't happen to me. Na-da.

You know, maybe I'm just tired of you know be where I am now. I know I complaints a lot and certain people will kept on saying that you shouldn't be complaining if this is what you are doing everyday and all. Well I complaints because that's what I have to make me I don't know, feel any better. It's not like I haven't tried to search for temporary work or talked about want to make an income for me self to spent or whatever. I've tried, get laughed at and got tired of it because whatever I want to do, don't seems right at their eyes. I must obey and do what I was told la-la-la. And yeah maybe I am not good at it but I did do it. And I DON'T KNOW! Nothing that I did (which I was told to do) was right. If I do something good, it will be unacknowledged. If I do something bad, whoah ain't you know how to get on my nerves. It just like what I do that's right, it's invisible and what I did wrong it was some sort of fire-sign that make you went through on nagging at me and complaints more than I do and the way you talked, it doesn't seems polite enough for me to stand and answer you politely sometime. Truth is, I CAN'T READ YOU! What you want what you don't want, what is it? What? What!. Keep yr stress vibe to yr self so it don't spread to me. I don't like me being stress.

I know something is holding me back to do what I want to do. And I also know the reasons why. And I know I am one stubborn human being. And I know it's not right to post it up here but just by doing this can make me stop thinking about it before it happen again and again and again. I am just so fucking tired. What's happening to me now definitely make me wanna fuck my brains out.

strange.

2010-06-06T09:18:00.000-07:00

It has come to a point in my life where my best friend, friend, mutual friend, a friend-of-a-friend-who-I- know-and-sort-of-my-friend-too, not-so-friend, a friend-who-I-wouldn't -call-my-friend, long lost friend, college-mate, schoolmate, classmate were getting MARRIED. See how dramatic I am to put those in to capital letters? Yes I am.

Like for seriously though, a lot of them are now either married, or wait to get married or engaged. It's sort of like a trend to get Married early or was it always like this? You start to finish yr college then started working and then friends all getting married and all. Well whatever it is, it's not I am against it though, it's just kind a strange or odd or I don't know. But everybody is doing it so it must be a good thing right?

And to top it off or just to think about it, they were all so lucky see, now they got to get married, live and love their high school or college sweetheart for the rest of their life. It's not easy you know to have waited so long to finally be together. Got to go through those fucking obstacle and all which is fucking annoying when it's has to be one of the major jealousy attack la 3rd person la and whats not. What a fucking heartache, sheesh. But these couple(s), these people which I've known or sort-of known for so long or not so long really made it through and to me it just seems so real, isn't it? Where it shows that love is really worth fighting for. Fuck, that is so adorable and I am definitely jealous. D e f i n i t e l y. Ha Ha.

It's funny kan how some people who we thought is unlucky turns out to be lucky after all? Such when I've known a friend who her/his partner was a total jerk to them, toy with them hearts but lastly end up marrying her/him? HAPPILY! And some people are otherwise. And it's fucking sad and depressing to be the 'otherwise' but hey, they've given their best, the work their effort but you know, maybe it was just not meant to be. Maybe future has better plans and it better be. Ha Ha.

Haih, all this marrying things kept me thinking sometime. But it's worth my time. I wonder when my time will come. AIT CHEEWWAAAHH. Ha Ha. I have to accomplish my goals first though besides my bby himself has a lot to achieve too. Ececece, getting cheesy already. OH Well whatever, I can saliva vomit on my self if I kept on going about this BUT it doesn't kill to dream my friend! After all it's yr life you are living :D

Bosan.

2010-05-24T09:12:00.000-07:00

Apa yang tinggal sekarang susah lah, ayah.

Haaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Bet.

2010-05-23T03:36:00.000-07:00

I know I am pretty and I've been doing a great job. And I also know that you, just have a big ego. And I know I'm right, I bet you know that too.

these are ORGASMIC #10

2010-05-21T07:55:00.000-07:00

credit to: Sarel Nang ;)

Alololo tomey tomey sayang saya. HAHA! Macam Katak. Haha. ♥♥♥

these are ORGASMIC #9

2010-05-08T10:46:00.000-07:00

You know, I never really like Zac Efron up front or like really admit that I like Zac Efron or actually talked about Zac Efron. I mean I like to say that he is hot, but I don't like to say it out loud. But sometime you see, this hot hunks locks my eyes at him for like a few minutes. Take this picture for example, doesn't he look spanking. Gosh Z, gosh.

But yeah, I never really like Zac Efron.

But yeah, he got a solid reason why he have to be in my orgasmic list.

Haha! Like yeah.

Ingin

2010-05-06T08:51:00.000-07:00

Saya teringin nak buat benda yang indah-indah.

Untuk famili, untuk kawan-kawan, untuk saudara, untuk yang bukan kawan.

Untuk ibu.

Tapi entahlah.

Entahlah. Tapi saya sangat happy sekarang ini.

Semalam

2010-05-06T08:46:00.000-07:00

Malu nak cakap terus-terus dengan you.

Terusnya,

I suka dan senang dengan apa yang kita ada sekarang.

Rasa blessed dan happy sangat.

Harap momen yang sekarang ini tak kan terpecah.

Dan yang penting tiada gagak.

Haha jiwangnya i. Boo!

I don't know how you do it.

2010-04-24T09:13:00.000-07:00

I just fucking don't know how you do it, you twerp ;)

I can catch you anytime but,

2010-04-20T08:04:00.000-07:00

Jangan alpa sayang :)

It might eat you out, alive.

Tak terluah dek kata.

2010-04-18T10:15:00.000-07:00

Saya sudah buat yang terbaik,

Lihatlah,

Jangan hanya nampak yang disebalik.

Sedih lah saya,

Kerana yang selalu dibilang, yang selalu dikata hanyalah disebalik.

Ya, saya tahu,

Ada lain yang lebih baik dan ada niat yang bukan tidak baik.

Tapi,

Sudah hanya yang ini yang boleh saya buat yang paling terbaik.

Sokong lah saya. Tidak berharap, tetapi puji lah saya (sekali-sekala).

Saya juga ingin merasa.

:(

2010-04-15T08:38:00.000-07:00

Devastated as hell.

Sorry ayah :(

A great wrap up.

2010-04-06T08:55:00.000-07:00

Yes, i am 99.5% graduated already. And here is the great wrap up for the whole 4 years of studying. I just love my baby and besties. Ya'll been great.

I'm on diet. I'm on diet.

2010-04-03T07:08:00.001-07:00

but this babies looks cute. Cute enough too bite. Oh gosh. Please be strong me, for Karen. Please.

Yes baby, I know you are ♥

2010-04-03T07:01:00.000-07:00

Duit $$

2010-04-01T02:10:00.000-07:00

Aku kalau benda ngarut yang boleh bawak duit ni memang la suke.

Mari! Korang pon boleh jugak. So let's go! Help me to help you.

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Today

2010-03-28T10:05:00.000-07:00

I felt unappreciated.

And to top that, I also receive a cynical comments, about my self.

Thanks for the self-esteem boomer.

Al-fatihah.

2010-03-27T11:28:00.000-07:00

A deepest condolences from me, to JN family for the lost of his brother in-law. Shaharani bin Shahruddin that have returned to the Almighty on 23/03/2010 at 4pm. Al-Fatihah. It's hard to lost somebody unexpectedly. I know. Because it happen to me just 4 months ago. To letting go is also hard, but the dead will remain dead, we who is alive must continue our journey. And yes, I am also talking to my self. Arwah was a very good man indeed, very neat and very nice. His gone cause a definite loss to the world but we are in the right place to question that. Anyway, Abg Syah we'll pray that you're placed with the people He loves. Rest in peace. Al-Fatihah.

p/s: Ayank. I know this is very hard for you as Abg Syah help you go through a lot. But as you being you, I know how well you hide it. I can't be and treat you like Abg Syah can but what I have to offer and what I can promise is a hand to hold, ears to listen, shoulder to cry on, and loves that last a lifetime. You can lean on me. Pinky promise♥

cerita lain;

4 bulan hari ini. Kakak rindu ayah. Mwah. IMYRL♥

Sigh.

2010-03-27T10:32:00.000-07:00

There's a load of frustration. Talk about it later.

Saya sayang sebenarnya,

2010-03-07T20:09:00.000-08:00

Kawan kawan saya,

Jangan lah menjauh,

Siapa lagi yang paham saya,

Kalau bukan anda semua,

Takkan selamanya nak tabur pada Jufry Naim sorang saja,

Memang la kadang saya lebihkan dia dari segala,

Tapi bukan semua cerita saya boleh ditamatkan olehnya.

Jadi kawan-kawan saya,

Jangan lah menjauh,

Saya rindu sebenarnya,

Dan sayang juga :)

Craves #1

2010-02-26T06:51:00.000-08:00

I think I may or may not turn into a girly girl now, because other than guys I'm starting to crave for bags, a lots of em! and these babies are to die for. Oh my god!

Fendi Peekaboo - a total favfavfav! ♥♥♥

Burberry Baby Burnished Leather Tote Bag

Bottega Veneta Buckle Tote

Louis Vuitton Speedy 30 Mini

So there you go. A hint(s) on what you can get me for my birthday this year. haha. I SO WANT THAT Fendi! See another obvious hint and there's more hint(s) coming.

ah, bila la nak ada duit sendiri yang banyak ni.

So much in ♥

2010-02-10T11:06:00.000-08:00

Tak kisah la apa orang nak cakap.

Cakap depan ke, cakap belakang ke, cakap kiri ke, cakap kanan ke, cakap bisik ke, cakap sindir ke, cakap kutuk ke. I sayang you JN! ♥♥♥

Ayah, kakak rindulah. Sangat, tapi kakak kuat. Ayah rasa tak? Kan? Loveyou :*

2010-02-01T10:30:00.000-08:00

BITCH GET OUT OF MY WAY!

GET OUT OF MY WAY BITCH GET OUT OF MY WAY!

me r aj u k.

2010-01-31T19:41:00.001-08:00

Semua orang sibuk cerita diorang dah mimpi ayah. Ayah senyum la gelak la. Kakak je belum. Ha ha, lantaklah.

Hmmmmmm :|

GEDIK.

2010-01-29T09:06:00.000-08:00

(Selalu tiba-tiba)

Rindu,
dekat you. Macam lama sangat je tak jumpa.

Ni untuk you - Serah

Orang punya tapi I pinjam. Dengarlah (I maksudkan, segala yang dia kata)
Sayang gila dengan you ♥ (haha gediknya I)

♥: This is so 2007 :)

2 bulan hari ini.

2010-01-27T10:07:00.000-08:00

Salam.

Rasa nak bersedih hari ni, tapi masih kental lagi. ha ha. tak tahu lah nak buktikan apa. tapi entahlah. Ayah macam mana? Rindu gila. Semua orang ingat kakak tak rindu tak ingat. Ha ha. Bodoh. Diorang bukan tau apa pun. Ah.

So updates.

So things are not going okay at home, biasalah. Entah ah, aku pon tak tau aa mende lagi diorang ni tak puas hati apa. I mean, kalau tak trust tu tak yah aa nak cakap lebih nak atur lebih, I mean how do I gain trust for my self if you don't trust me and how do you expect me to trust you if you don't even trust me..Malas nak cakap lagi, hal trust ni dari dulu lagi pon and aku memang cani lagi pon, dari dulu lagi cani, pastu nak kata aku tak berubah, cam tolong lah en. cam nak perbaiki jadah, I mean don't fixed things I don't want to be fixed cause don't matter how you tried, you are fixing me and I am the one who decide whether I want to be fix or not. ughh. pastu nak talk about responsibilities la selfish la participation la. aa memang tak ah nak tolerate. bebel tu dah biasa. Sebenarnya memang macam ni pun dari dulu lagi, so okay silap, bukan things are not going okay, tp things a normal at home. sheesh. So that's about the elderly people in the house la.
Adik-adik camtu je la, E as known went to PLKN, pergi tengok dia last week, he seems okay. makin besar, makin berakal. Pandai bawak diri. Alhamdulillah tak ada buat hal ngn aku n orang lain. Abang pulak, he seems to develop a new attitude. Tak tau aa dia disturb apa kat dalam kepala dia, no respect for me as always at all even, menyombong, panggil kakak bitch aa fuck aa pastu dia ingat dia noble sangat, baik sangat, pffft. Asal balik je nak buat hal, pastu memang aa aku yang kena marah sebab ye ah dia buat benda tak obvious pastu buat cam aku yang salah. pastu kena kat aku. camtu aa game dia. tak leh nak lagi low. no respect at all. aku ni cam bukan kakak dia je.. SO WHATEVER, malas nak pikir.
Studies, cam tu je ah. Quizzes, test and midterm kalau selagi boleh tiru, tiru. tu je yang boleh tolong untuk UP marks for final. yeah judge yr self first before judge me on that. FYP camtu je, gerak jugak tapi slow nak mampos. tapi kena pulon lagi. I don't have the heart to do it. But I don't want to extend so might as well I just push my self to do it.
Friends, macam tu ah. Some of them I don't know what the hell wrong. Some of them are just like fine. Come and go as they wish. Can't be more through can't they. ha ha well aku sape je nak kena jaga hati, aku sape je nak dipeduli. Tapi dah member en, nak buat cane. Telan je la, susah senang aku cari kau orang jugak, tho sometime kau lari.
Love, well camtu je la dia. susah senang dia ada, always there cam jadi bayang-bayang aku tho kadang-kadang bukan bayang-bayang yang kejar aku, aku yang kejar bayang-bayang. haha. macam mana pon dia, he help around to make things easier. paksa atau rela, mengata atau suka. I don't wish to know, I don't want to set that for him. Itu hal dia dengan diri dia. Apa yang dia pertahankan, apa yang dia harapkan, aku serah kat

atas je untuk membalas. Banyak dah susah kan dia sebenarnya, tapi entahlah, tak nampak happy pills lain selain dia. so for that thanks yank, alot. ILYJN.

And tu je lah so far. Banyak sangat kang, salah tulis pulak. Salah tulis kang, banyak yang menyampai pulak. Biasalah kita kan suke ambil berat sesama manusia.

Ha ha ambil berat my ass.

ni je la yang ada skang.

2 bulan dah ayah hari ni. Kakak tak ready lagi untuk berhijrah. Sorry, harap ayah tenang kat sana. Rindu ayah. Al-fatihah.

Sepurnama dah ayah.

2009-12-28T07:35:00.000-08:00

Sebulan dah ayah tinggalkan ibu, kakak dan adik-adik. Tinggal macam tu je, tak ada pesan apa-apa pun. Kakak tak tau la apa yang kakak rasa, kakak cuba try nak rasa biasa je tapi kadang-kadang rasa pelik la ayah, bila dah tak ada baju ayah yang kakak kena lipat, bila balik lambat tak ada sape nak bukak pintu pastu bebel-bebel, bilik bawah pon dah gelap je, tak ada da bunyi honk annoying yang ayah suka buat tu tiap kali ayah balik keje, tak ada orang dah nak cocok kakak sampai kakak bengang, kakak dah tak leh call ayah dah kalau ada masalah ngan laptop.

ayah ni...kakak dah nak abis belajar da, 1 sem je lagi ayah, ayah tak leh tunggu ke. kadang-kadang kakak rasa nak marah sangat ta

pi....tapi nak marah dekat siapa..cepat sangat ayah, cepat sangat, kakak ingat first gaji nak belanja ibu dengan ayah gi jalan-jalan, tapi tak sempat. semua tak sempat, cepatnya ayah pergi.

kenapa masa kakak balik tu ayah tak cakap suruh bagi tau ibu?

kenapa masa kakak tunjuk gambar lori kat ayah tu, ayah tak cakap apa-apa, tinggal pesan ke, suruh call ambulans ke. ayah tak pernah sakit tapi kenapa baru sekali ayah sakit ayah tidur terus..

ayah, rindu lah. siyeeesssssss ♥♥

hmm, Al-fatihah.

err hye.

2009-12-17T08:37:00.000-08:00

hurm..

datang singgah kesat-kesat habuk je.

belum lagi sebab masih kuat.

kot :)

these are orgasmic #8

2009-11-17T10:34:00.000-08:00

Oh my god!

just OH MY GOD. why there's no one tell me that argentina guys is really hot!?

fuhh! i first saw him on Oprah's (yes i watched Oprah's) and he is friggin' hot!

okay, this is Nacho Figueras, he is 32 AND A POLO PLAYER! unfortunately he's a married man and a father of 2 children (awww, sorry ladies) BUT isn't he's an eye catcher? oh man, yes, he catch my eye alright. mm-hmm~

gosh he's orgasmic!

Sunshine.

2009-11-08T20:04:00.000-08:00

We are what we have baby. Let's make it count.

Grief.

2009-11-01T04:48:00.000-08:00

Hello heart,

How are you've been doing? I heard things are going tough on you yea? Well, it's gonna be alright. Everything is gonna be alright. We are all gonna be alright. Life isn't perfect hun, it's messy. So keep on being strong. I know you are strong yea? Super strong in fact.

haih.

How I pity myself right now. How I envy at every person in the world right now. Things that happened in front of me, beside me, everywhere around me seems so far away from my reach. How my heart ache every second, how my mind corrupted every minutes. I don't know what I've done for me to deserve such treat. I don't know what should be done for me to erase such treat.

How I pity myself right now. That I have created a person in my mind, that always there and calm me whenever I feel like I'm about to crack, one who plays with my hair, one who wipes my tears, one who hugged me before sleep, smile at me when I open my eyes in the morning. That I have created a place where I can release all the sadness that I've held inside my aching heart.

How i pity myself right now. That I have to trouble others to hear such tale, to stole others time to keep me company cause I can't mend being alone, to invade in others tale so I can have someone to laugh with.

I am at my lowest point. Never I felt this low before upon receiving such a grief and unhappy faces. Thank you so much friend, for being my cane, for lending on shoulders and walk together.

Kneeled down on my knees, my ego and dignity is lower than the ground. In selfless and in helpless,

Tuhan, tolong perbaiki ini. Kuat aku tidak lama, tapi tabah itu masih ada.

ah, I felt so lost.

This one I promise.

2009-10-24T08:17:00.000-07:00

It's amazing how you knock me off my feet, Everytime you come around me I get weak, Nobody ever made me feel this way, You kiss my lips and then you take my breath away, So I wanna know,

I wanna know what turns you on, So I can be all that and more, I'd like to know what makes you cry, So I can be the one who always makes you smile.

Baby I'm the kind of girl who shows concern, yes I do, Anyway that I can please you let me learn, So I wanna know, Tell me what I gotta do to please you, Baby anything you say I'll do, Cause I only wanna make you happy, From the bottom of my heart, it's true.

I wish that I could take a journey through your mind, alright and find emotions that you always try to hide babe, I do believe that there's a love you wanna share, I'll take good care of you baby, have no fear.

ILYJN <3

Stand behind me,

2009-10-23T11:33:00.000-07:00

I got my finals next week, I still am not ready.

I need to finish my project by next week, I still am not ready.

I am gonna present my project 1 on 3rd Nov, and yes still not ready.

How can I be ready.

Please, you seriously do not need to use yr ego with me.

Stand behind me.

I am Blair long before Eda going bazzare on YM.

2009-10-18T08:01:00.000-07:00

I've been 'connecting' with ed westwickk on twitter ever since I add him the other day. I was all excited till I told my best friend all about it. How we were connected, and how I never feel more close to him, how he and me were written to be together and how ed has make me drooling, going head over heels for him and all, right. So since I was all excited right, so I told her and I never thought the she'd be so jealous till she goes bazzare on Yahoo Messenger. She must have some feeling about ed long before I got him. oh well lucky me. you snooze you loose!

HAHAHAAH!

This self-celeb-obses post is suppose to be funny. So don't be so up-tight :D

Something about what i post earlier.

2009-10-10T21:52:00.000-07:00

I want to be a Holly.

2009-10-10T11:08:00.000-07:00

I don't want to be apart of anything!!

but I can't never be apart from you.

Please understand.

Self quote

2009-10-10T05:29:00.000-07:00

No matter how bithcy a girl can be,
You still need to have a girlfriend.

self.

What's feels good and what's not.

2009-10-10T05:04:00.001-07:00

I heard people say that,

Don't say I love you so often, you might not see or feel the value of it.

Well to hell with others, I want to say I love you everyday..

see and the value of it increase everyday and it's true! It does feel really good.

--

Talkin' about value..yeah I think I need to value my self more, cause it seem I don't get much from others. I've been 'down on my knees' for too long already.
and yeah this can be my other talk-to-talk. I will be back to me soon enough. haih, typical shit.

i'm a fool.

2009-10-09T10:43:00.000-07:00

I got to stop be a burden to others especially to my loves one.

I ain't got much friend, so I better stop before I have none. Haih, I never thought I could do so many mistakes. I mean mistakes that I have apologize on but keep on doing it, without notice. I got to start figure out things. Because being me means being shallow. Always shallow. I am shallow. I don't think straight, I don't do the wright thing, I am dumb enough to be declare as stupid. I know things but I keep on doing the wrong things. I don't know why, okay maybe I do know why I want to blame my self over all this.

I am so much of a talker, and how I regret that I am one. haih.

You know what you,

I just want to help you through, that's all.

I just want you to know that you have me, through sad times, good times, hard times, watever times.I want to be your jinx, your happy pills, your punching bag, your junk, your laugh. I know I can't be everything, but atleast I know I've tried. I never meant to smother you, I just want you to know that I'm here, I'm exist, for you. That's all, and sometime I kept on doing things is because I don't know if you know I'm exist, I'm afraid you might forget bout me. HAIH. Ridiculous? I know! sorry.

I know my 'sorry' has become a little cheap, but I mean it every time I said it.

I don't want to repeat the same mistakes again, please help me, remind me.

Sorry for being shallow and stupid, again.

these are ORGASMIC #7

2009-10-06T12:38:00.000-07:00

OKAY!
usually on these are orgasmic I post more about hot-hunk-sex-god-guys rite, that you girls go oohh's and ahh's, drolling la melting la (okay padahal diri sendiri) eennn. but today I don't want to satisfy you girls punya nafsu, I want to return the favor to my guy readers pulak.

guys, check this out!
girls, ready to say "I ENVY YOU LAH BITCH!" to this one..

OMAGAAAHHHHH LOOK AT HER TWINSSS!!

YOU SEE? JUST LOOK AT THAT ASSETS OF HERS. GAAHHH!
AH, I KNOW RITEE! who wouldn't want this! bapak besar sial!
okay, This is Simona Halepaya, a tennis player (star-soon-to-be) and she is just 17! wow!

tapi nanti dia nak buat surgery untuk reduce kan size breast dia sebab susah nak main tennis. (HAH, what!?)
macam tak logik gila alasan, kalau bagi kat aku, aku sanggup quit tennis dari pergi reduce size breast aku. enn enn.

ah tak nak kasi aku,
Let's trade boobies, Simona!
:p

okay tu je, tangan jangan laju2. haha bye.

vain habes-habesan

2009-10-05T05:28:00.000-07:00

disebabkan hari raya ni aku tade 1 gmbr pon berdua dgn yank yang pakai baju raya, baju kebangsaan ataupun gambar raya la senang,

maka nah.
hambeklah sebagai santapan mata.
hahahaha.

Karma 101: Sekarang kan Tuhan bayar cash. en en. hmp.

2009-09-26T10:26:00.000-07:00

patut lah gheta rosak.
tgh bulan raya kan ni.
baru mintak maaf. hmm.

padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka! padan muka!

nyampah.

Saya Mengucapkan

2009-09-18T08:59:00.000-07:00

SHRMZB!

سلامت اري راي عيدالفطري، معاف ظاهير دان باطين

Demi menghadap lebaran kali ini, aku nak mintak maaf banyak-banyak kat semua orang, kawan-kawan real life, virtual life, bloggers, imiginary dan semua lah.

Kalau ada terkasar bahasa, terbiadap bicara, salah dan silap minta dimaafkan.
Kalau ada yang terkurang, terlebih minta dihalalkan.
Yang buruk dari aku,
Yang baik dari Tuhan.

Selamat Menyambut Hari Lebaran Aidilfitri!
Baik-baik aja weh! Sayang semua!

teeyadandy :D

I was like; WHOAH.

2009-09-10T06:01:00.000-07:00

I don't really know how to feel or what to say.
Macam tak percaya, macam pegun, macam, WWWWWHHHHAAAATTTT?
Aku bodoh ya aku percaya, tapi aku diperbodohkan, susah nak percaya.
tak tahu nak percaya aku ke nak percaya yang belum tentu boleh percaya ke atau nak percaya yang benda yang tak pasti dan perlu ke percaya.

pening, tapi macam,
whoah. WHOAH!

kadang-kadang apa yang kita expect kita tahu sebenarnya kita tak tahu apa-apa pun dan kita pun tak kan expect yang bila kita dapat tahu kita jadi macam; whoah.
betul ke haaa?
atoiyai.

so sekarang ni rasa macam, totally akward. haih.

betul lah kita tak boleh percaya sangat orang ramai ni 100%
haih. kecewa sikit. sedih sikit. marah sikit. devastated sikit.

ah, whateve, sampai masa ada la tu nanti.
tskk. kenapa macam ni?
*shivers*

<3

2009-09-08T11:53:00.000-07:00

Lately macam banyak sangat menyusahkan orang sekeliling.
everything just didn't work out well for me ya know.
ada je tak kena. ada je masalah.
baru nak seronok guna kereta, adik eksiden, kena hantar balik, haih tak boleh nak lebih sikit. hmm. pendrive hilang lagi. kerja banyak tak siap. apa lagi? apa yang tak kena, cakap je lah, I got em all, I am the queen of flawless anyway. haih.

bila nasib nak berubah pun tak tahu lah.
bukan tak bersukor, tapi...

sedih lah, sampai bila nak hidup menyusahkan orang. nanti orang tak suka pulak, kalau asyik menyusahkan, i mean. i don't want to be a burden but i really don't have many friends around you see, so I start clinging with one and hope to return the favor. serius, harapan tinggi kali ni aku nak balas jasa kawan yang sorang, tapi bila dah jadi macam ni, rasa bersalah tak nak lagi tinggi pulak.

haih. dah la sedih kereta kena ambik balik, rasa bersalah pulak, rindu lagi.

apalah nasib atiyah rosli.

- - -

tapi bersyukor sangat, everything is okay now.
dalam mood nak berbaik-baik, but i think it goes very well already.

like veeerrrryyyy weelll.
and i can't be thankful enough! :)
tenang langsung hati, tak payah nak nanges setiap hari.
I CAN SEE THOSE SMILE AND THOSE EYES AGAIN. OMGGG!

i love you, i love you!

haha.
:) Thank you sayang for everything. ILYJN ♥♥

and thanks a lot too eda. ILYNA.

♥ tya.

I have nothing part 1

2009-09-06T07:36:00.000-07:00

acin, lama lagi ke sayang?
I rindu you ni,
rindu gila-gila!
serius.
*huggss*